Anonymous asked: Thank you for actually taking your time to write all this just for me. It's good to know that someone actually cares i hurt myself. It may not cause me to stop, but it's defiantly a push in the right direction. This really means a lot, i haven't talked to anyone about this i just kept it bottled up inside and it feels good letting it out to someone who actually cares. Thank you so much, I'm actually going to bed with a smile on my face today. Good night <3
It’s my pleasure, darling. You can come talk to me or Kathryn anytime. We will always be willing to listen to you, and we will always do everything that we can to bring that smile to your face. You are important, and we will do anything we can do to help you stop hurting yourself so that you can get on with living your life.
-Rhiannon
Anonymous asked: I messed up big time. I was at this party my friend was holding, and it was the last day of school also our senior year. We were planning on getting drunk, really really drunk. My girlfriend was there, i had taken her with me i really do love this girl with all my heart. My friend doesn't like her, because he thinks she's holding me down. She's not holding me down, i slept with over half the schools female population, i was a player and ass hole actually. Now that I'm not there to join him (1)
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Anonymous asked: all the time and get drunk and sleep with random girls, he doesn't like that and she's the reason. Anyway i got really drunk, and i ended up being tied to a chair and having two girls suck my dick. I was totally drunk and unaware of what was going on. The worst part was, she actually saw it happening. I don't remember much, i remember her crying though and the look on her face is stuck in my head. I hurt her badly, i know that and i feel like shit. I really do love her, and I've never thought(2)
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Anonymous asked: about any other girl when i was with her. She's a virgin, and yes to be honest i do want to take her virginity but only because i love her and i want to be the first and last guy to ever be with her. I haven't pressure her, and she's comfortable with the idea of waiting because she knows I'll wait for her. I've tried everything to get to her, but she won't listen. I got her flowers, i even wrote her a song i never do that crap but i did it for her and actually sang even though my voice (3)
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Anonymous asked: sucks ass. I've written her letters, and I've begged for her forgiveness. It's been 2 weeks and i'm dying here. It's summer i'd usually be out getting drunk, but i'm at home thinking of ways to get her to even talk to me. I can't live without this girl, she means everything to me. I need her back, and i'm willing to do whatever it takes but the thing is i don't know what else to do.. i don' t even know if she'll ever forgive me i was a dick and that was a douchi move(4)
Well, to start off, I don’t mean this in a judgmental way at all, but it sounds like you need to stop drinking! If you aren’t at the maturity level where you can drink responsibly without being wasted, then you really shouldn’t be doing it. When you reach the point where you can’t remember things, you’ve gone WAY too far.
Secondly, the bottom line is that you cheated on her. It doesn’t matter that you were drunk and didn’t really know what was going on. It was cheating. So you have GOT to be understanding of the way she feels. Not only was she probably embarrassed by the way you were acting and the fact that she had to watch the whole thing, but she probably feels quite betrayed. I’m sure her pride is hurt. You were doing things with other girls, she was watching, and everyone knew she was watching. Everyone who was there probably saw her watching you cheat on her. And that’s embarrassing. In her eyes, you likely confirmed the reputation for being a player, and you’ve lost her trust.
Your attempts to get her back are admirable. But realize she isn’t something to be bought! The only way you can get her back is if you prove to her that she can trust you. So what’s my best advice? Show her you can change. Show her that you can be faithful. Show her that you are no longer the player you were before and that you’ll do anything in your power to avoid that kind of situation. Stop going to those kinds of parties. Stop getting drunk. Yeah, your friends might throw fits, but if they abandon you, then they weren’t good friends anyway.
I’m going to be honest. If she came to me and told me that her boyfriend went to a party, got drunk, and that two girls gave him blow jobs…I would tell her to break up with him. This is hurting her. What you need to care about is her happiness. Set your ego aside and consider whether or not she would be happier if you just left her alone, and then decide what to do from there. In all things, make sure you aren’t being selfish.
Good luck!
-Rhiannon
Anonymous asked: My parents got divorced because of me, and after they got divorced it was really hard for me and my sister. She always said it was my fault, she was really close with my dad so when he moved out she was really upset. Everything started drifting apart and then one day she committed suicide. I tried to help and i called 911 cause no one else was home, but she died. Then after that, my dad starting getting into drugs and worse things, and now he's an alcoholic. I ruined their lives.
You did NOT ruin their lives. Darling, you need to realize that parents do not get divorced over one child. If their love was true, no issue with you would have ended their relationship. Unfortunately, when bad things happen, people never want to see their own faults and failures, and so they instead blame someone else. With divorce, parents and other family members will often try to blame one of the kids.
Your sister’s death is not your fault. She decided to end her own life rather than persevering, and that’s entirely on her. You tried to help, my dear. You did what you could. It is sad that she ended it before she could experience the best days of her life. Your dad moving away was also probably not the only reason this happened…she probably had many more personal issues that you just never knew about. Perhaps some traumatic experiences. Perhaps an emotional disorder. Perhaps extreme self-esteem problems. Don’t blame yourself for this, darling. You can’t change the past, but you can change the future. So why focus on the past? Focus on what you have the power to affect.
Your father’s addictions to drugs and alcohol may have stemmed from her suicide. If you want to play the blame game, then it’s “her fault” for causing him to fall into such a depression by ending her life. This is why people say suicide is selfish. People try to escape their own pain with no care for how it affects the people who love them! But again, you have to realize that like your sister’s suicide, the decision to take drugs and drink are HIS to make. They both were caused by the person DECIDING to do those things. You didn’t MAKE them happen. You didn’t FORCE them to do those things. They’ve ruined their own lives. Love, your father can still turn his life around, and you might be able to help him with that! But you first need to focus on turning your own life around. You can break the vicious cycle of self-harm. You can be strong. You can help people and change the world…every single person has the capability to do that! And realizing that potential is such a beautiful thing. Whether or not you see how beautiful the world really is and how much MORE beautiful you alone have the power to make it is what affects your ability to be happy again.
Speak out against suicide. Think about working with or donating to an organization that combats suicide in young people. This might help you come to peace with your loss a little bit more, and you might even feel like you’ve given meaning to what happened. Create good from the bad.
If you still have communication with your dad, encourage him to stop. Support him. He’s obviously been really hurt by the loss of your sister, as I’m sure you have too. You’re not going through this alone. Draw close the people who love you. We love you. <3
-Rhiannon
Anonymous asked: I'm not wonderful at all actually, I've ruined many peoples lives.
I disagree. I already know you’re wonderful. But tell me how you’ve ruined many peoples’ lives. Maybe I can help you feel better about it.
-Rhiannon
Anonymous asked: Yeah i guess, it does kind of make me feel dominant. I don't know if this makes me sound sick, but usually after that she'll cry and she'll apologize to me, then I'll hold her. I don't know i guess i like it when she comes to me.. I don't really know what this means either...
Maybe you are a little starved for attention. I know that sounds horrible because everyone is always talking smack on people who want attention, but let’s be honest…almost everyone wants attention. Again, when she comes to you and you can hold her, it might also make you feel a bit more dominant. I don’t think you sound sick. I think you just sound like you have something you need to work on, so don’t beat yourself up over it! Trust me when I say she won’t let this go on forever though, so it’s up to you to make the change.
-Rhiannon
Anonymous asked: I think my boyfriend found out i cut, I'm so scared. I never wanted him to find out..
Darling, if you plan to stay with him, he’s going to find out sooner or later! Don’t be afraid. If he is trustworthy, then there is nothing to fear. Why are you cutting? You’re far too wonderful to be harming yourself, and I’m sure he’d agree with me.
-Rhiannon
